My Diary

I can see your point but when mania gets bad it is a true illness. I think the problem is that despite the fact that many people are bipolar it is still not widely understood by "normal" people. My family still havn't truly understood it yet which can be extremely annoying honestly. I think people respond to your honestly when your manic because maybe they aren't used to you acting that way or because what you say is hurtful. The old "sticks and stones may break my bones but words can never hurt me" is completely wrong because words can hurt. I don't know what your saying or anything and I'm not blaming you either, but it could also be that people also don't understand where your are coming from with your statements. A lot of people misinterpret what I say and I HATE it. Its so annoying. But you should talk to your pdoc or tdoc about how you feel. It may help. Just know that you aren't alone. I feel that way too...atleast when I'm not depressed.

LOL Tabbybp, you sound like you have an activist's orientation to the world. Well, then, find a way to get active. Volunteer for an organization of your choice: environmental, animal rights, womens' rights...the choice really is yours, there are so many out there.

I also have that kind of orientation to the world. My personal belief system is that each of us only needs enough to be self-sustaining, money should go into the bank or funneled back into programs to help others in community, when I can, I park the car and hike or bike, when I encounter animals out of doors, I am on their turf and treat them w/respect, on and on...

You aren't alone in ethics and morality issues. You just have to find and beef up that sort of community for yourself. You can do it.

But, also, don't ignore pmensah's comments regarding your health and reactions to others. You may find some truths there, too.

Put your energy into something useful. Be the change you want to see in the world. Who said that? I forget...

oh my sorry, didnt mean 2 misunderstand. Honestly, I know I wont be normal. I never have been. I just figure why make it a them vs us type of situation. How are we all supposed to make a difference if we keep putting things in unnecessary categories. I do think I put "normal" people on some sort of pedistol but I think I do that because it just seems (atleast on the surface) that they have life so much easier. They dont take pills everyday, they dont spend a shit load on pdocs and tdocs. But making this word a better place is something that should be done all the time not just when things seem harmful to us.