My Diary

Still fighting, but the urges aren't coming as they used to. After the first week, the want for binging and purging lessens significantly! 

I'm off on holiday on Monday and I'm so looking forward to it! We'll be cycling every day for 9 days (30-60km a day) across Austria, from Passau to Vienna! So that'll help the mental side of things, I'll just have to watch what I eat - which I'm fine with, as long as I'm exercising! 

I have been exercising religiously this week, toning up, and have never felt happier in my own skin. I had a day off today as I was hurting a bit - my achilles has been playing up when I've been running etc. and we had a Chinese for dinner as my sister had just come back from Newquay and that's what she fancied. I'm actually okay with how I am right now; I'm comfortably full from dinner, not feeling guilty for not exercising as I know I'll make myself go tomorrow morning and even if I had gone today it would've only worsened my recovery - you need to recover to get stronger after all!

I've controlled my alcoholism problem by not going out, I still have a glass of wine at home with the evening television, but I'm avoiding going to the pub or a club when I know I won't be driving, or else I know it'll get out of hand. It's a bit like binging - if you don't feel like you can only have a bit of the bad stuff, don't have any at all, you won't believe what wonders it'll do for your recovery! 

I'm feeling healthy, toned and happy!

I hope you all are too :)

~Ex