So my best guy friend told me that he like a new girl he met. She totally hogs all his time not knowing about me. Shes sooooooo great... ugghhh... anyway my best guy friend was mad at me for a weekbecause i freaked out on him when he told me. not alot just a little. I didn't go crazy. Ij ust told him i was mad and jealous. He didn't understand. How could he its not like I told him I loved him, or that i was falling in love with him. 

I decided to move on and accept the friend role. But he kept on and on and on and on and on forever about my being ok with it. He said he could tell i was upset. I tried lieing out of it.But darn it he sees right through my lying eyes. So i said there wasn't enoughhh time to talk about it but he insisted. After he badgered me i bluttered out "I don't want to be your damn friend.  Why can't you see I love you. Somewhere along the line i fell in love with you! thats why i was upset and acted that way!"

 I think he wanted to faint. He said we'd talk about it later. He had to leave. Which i knew he did, thats why i didn't  want to tell him. ugggggggggghhhh. I feel so horrible for blurting it out like that! What was i thinking?  i wasn't thinking! uggggg Gees. He called me later, we talked abit. He said I should of told him sooner. IDK whats done is done. Whats said is said. I should feel better, but i don't cause she (his girlfriend loves him too) yeah lucky guy right? Ifeel like I'm in a bad soap opera.