i'm not so upity today as i usually. i'm kinda depressed. i'm frustrated that no one can really relate to what i'm going thru, and i'm lonely. i have no super close girl friendsthat i can just hang out with and do girl things with. except my mom, and she's great- don't get me wrong- but what am i supposed to do when she's gone?

i'll be happy when schools' out (june 3) and i'll be able to relax a little bit. however i have to work a huge job starting that friday- for almost 2 weeks. my mom and i are watching 2 severely disabled kids while their parents are on vacation. i consider my one good deed a year :) 

i wish i wasnt so bummed out. its a gorgeous day out but all i feel like doing is sleeping. i just read for about an hour. i have a headache. does anyway ever get annoyed but just the littlest, consistent sound? like there's this humming thing with my window and it literally drives me mad! u can hardly hear it but i swear, it just drags on and annoys the crap out of me.

tomorrow i'm going to help my autistic brother get a cell phone after work. that should be interesting. and tuesday i'm going in to get a tattoo! i'm super excited about that- its like something i can do for myself with no one elses influence, that makes me happy. i brought in a pic of what i kind of wanted and had the girl there design something for me- its totally sweet! so i have that to look forward to. plus i think this week is a shortened week at school because of field trips or something.

well overall pain-wise i've been doing pretty good. i'm on this new gabapentin (nerontin) and it seems to be working so far

anyway- i think i'm going to go take a nap and then maybe get outside for a walk or something. i hope all is well with everyone and if you'd like to talk- i'm always here. my husbands' been working a lot lately and i just hang out in our apartment if i'm not working :) email me if u like! ttyl