My attempts at recovery and moving on

I'm really scared at the moment.  I will have my last session of CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy) next Friday (16th July 2010).  My therapist (I'll call her M) has been reallygreat and in my last session on 2nd July we discussed my feelings for my previous therapists.  I said that in my previous therapy I have felt admiration and love for the therapist (female) and I was way too scared to tell her about it in case she thought I was strange or (heaven forbid) that she thought I was gay.  I have never considered myself to be gay, and last week in my session I told my therapist that I've had "inappropriate" feelings for her, i.e. love, admiration etc.  She said this is normal in therapy, but I'm still really ashamed of feeling this way.  I'm scared that I might do something stupid, like hurting myself or drinking so much alcohol that I end up in hospital.

I don't think I am gay, but I'm scared.