Mr.torture

everyone in my house is asleep, my best friend who is crashing here, and my boyfriend.so I decided to ramble away here.Im tried so many times to take my permit test at the dmv but i just can't passit, i don't even remember how many times i wonder to myself is it the meds contributing to my poor concentration?or am I bound to fail because Im sending the universe mixed signals to what I want, I'm just not sure, i hate and get sick of failing though.see I'm somewhat scared to drive sometimes...but i really want my license because i have a bad back and get sick of walking!idk what to do i guess i'll  keep trying and trying it may waste money to keep retaking it but whatever.Also Ive been dealing with some side effects from my meds which have been kind of a burden on me, when i get up i black out,poor concentration, always feel like i have to do something , a little groggy in the morning,but at least my dr.is lowering my meds, which I'm thankful to finally have a good dr. vs. all the shitty ones I've had in the past who I'm not sure why are even dr.s in the 1st place.sigh