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Mouth and Mind

My description of my journal keeping Is the act of making something so ugly (my insides with such pain) and making something beautiful. It is My way of releasing this year or todays afternoon that moved so slowly. I tend to fill a journal with all of me sometimes its poetry other times it a story or me just letting go so maybe I can find sleep

And it all hurts

Mar 08 2009

I feel too many things today. Far too many things to feel whole or well. Its never going to stop it what my head tells me, yet broken as I am I know it must it must stop. I am so restless guess one greattruths in life is one I have tested ( YOU CAN NEVER GET AWAY FROM YOURSELF) Oh I know how to run and I hide all of the time but It seems now I am too tired I just want to be well enough to live without this pain this emptiness, ans total sadness that comes and stays within me til nothing is left really to fight these seconds that take to long. My hands shake so bad today and my heart rate is drumming in such a way that I feel my inside speed is making me feel to slow always to slow. I dont know if maybe I could just scream loud enough, I also cut myself a few days ago I have kept it hidden of course I mend it in hopes of mending me in a strange way. I did not mean to I had just hurt all alone so badly that I gave into the only thing that takes it away for a while. This day seems so grey and I have yet to find a way to loose myself in it. I instead am feeling everything all at once ---and it all hurts

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written by uppitywoman, March 08, 2009

Lyric, I am sorry you are feeling so down, but cutting is not the answer. I used to cut because it seemed to give me release and relief for a short while, but it never lasted. If you are seeing a dr. please tell him about this and talk about getting your meds adjusted. He/she is there to help.

written by CherrieAngel, March 09, 2009

You're right, you can't hide from yourself. One of my favorite sayings is "wherever you go..there you are." Ain't that the truth!! If you ever need to talk msg me ok