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Plans from decades ago fall well short of their goals.

Apr 27 2010

When I was a teen, I did quite a lot of "stupid" "extreme" stuff, from Ski Racing, to Cliff Jumping/Diving, it didn't matter, the more adrenaline, the better. I had it in myown mind that I wouldn't die until I was 50 years old trying to ski one of the hardest avalanche chutes, and that was my way out.

Now I find myself years later diagnosed with 3 things that have quelled any chance of me even returning to those old pastimes in the mildest forms. A long forgotten head injury left me with an undiagnosed herniated disc in my neck for years. This most likely led to the development of the Reflexive Sympathetic Dystrophy that attacks my hands every 6 weeks or so rendering them useless. Then there is the Bipolar, wonderful discovery that was, at least it helped explain the behaviours I have been exhibiting for most of my life, but it doesn't make it any easier on friends, family, or others. Finally there is a congenital heart defect that keep creeping back into my life. When all three of this hit simultaneously it's difficult enough to afford all the medications, so I'm forced to prioritize. I need the psychotropes more than the pain killers, more than the heart meds. I'd rather be someone who is somewhat sane with less time in this world, than to live longer in the pain and chaos that would cause more damage around me if I were just to finally stop my heartbeat.



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written by YorkieLove, April 27, 2010
It is very sad that you have to make these kinds of decisions. I understand your reasoning though. I hope that these problems of yours ease and give you some peace.

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