|Sep 21 2011|
Hello everyone I am sorry to have not been on here for awhile but I have been having a terrible time breathing and alot of trouble with my stomach due to this hernia and tumor. Neither one of this can be fixed so I just have to take it easy and pray that some of it passes and wait until I am able to be up and around again. I know unless God heals me I will never be well but that does not mean I can't still enjoy myself when possible.
When I was younger it seemed it took going and doing alot of things to keep me content but not now. Now all it takes is a good book a warm blanket and some t.v. shows I enjoy and all you guys here that I love so dearly and care so much about always encouraging me and loving me back. Simple things really. I am but a simple person who is truely blessed each and everyday. Even when times get tough I know I am still blessed.
Lately I have been thinking alot about Heaven and the Journey I will make one day. It is not an unpleasant thought at all and I do not fear it. I spend alot of time praying for all of you and asking God to allow you too see and feel his light as I do. So there will be no fears.
One day week before last when I was so sick I layed down under bi-pap all day so I could breathe and still felt like I would quit at any moment. It was a longday and I finally went to sleep. While asleep I dreamed (or at least I thought it was a dream when I first woke up) that I was sitting on a rock with the sun shining so bright and light all around me. All I could see was the ocean and it was hitting my feet and I could feel the water so warm on them both yet I did not feel hot. I could smell the salt water and when I looked down there was no tumor I had a bright yellow skirt on. I could hear childern singing all around me but I never saw them and it was so very beautiful. I raised my feet up out of the water and noticed both my feet looked normal not just one of them. (Right now one is really crippled up). I then stood and kept turning around and noticed wow no wheelchair and I felt great. I woke up thinking what a wonderful dream that was and how I actually felt so much lighter. (And anyone who knows me knows I dream of seeing the ocean). I went to set up to get in the wheelchair and I noticed my feet and legs were wet up to almost my knees. I felt the one I could reach and noticed the water felt salty. So then I began to wonder if God had allowed me to cross over for a breif time and let me see and feel what is to come someday. So no matter how bad I feel I am truely surrounded by LIGHT!!!!
Thank You Lord for all that you have done in my life and for all that you give me each and everyday. THank you for letting me feel at peace no matter how much these different ailments wrack my body. And I asked Lord that you allow me to help others see there is nothing to fear and that we are only here for a short period so we need to make the most of each and everyday. I ask this in Jesus most precious name.....AMEN!
And you know I love all you guys and even when I am not able to be on your always in my thoughts and prayers each and everyday. You mean so much to me.
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