Mitzigirl

Dear Diary,

When I come here I usually come to pray and talk and just simply think things through. For the past several days pain has been horrible for me.  I can barely tolerate it evenon the strong medicines I take. And surely cannot take anything stronger because it compromises my breathing. So here I am stuck in a situation that is truely out of my control.

So my part in this whole mission is to figure out how to survive this and still move on and move forward as I know the Lord wants me to do. Giving up is not even a choice for me I have been brought back too many times to not know that I am still suppose to be here.

As far as knowing why I have to deal with all this pain I have no answer but I do not feel I am being punished in any shape form or fashion. I feel that if anything it is a lesson to teach me and out of it I will gain the knowledge God wants me too.

So I will continue to write to all my dear friends here.  And try my best to help out anywhere I can and be thankful for having that privilege.  So no matter how bad it gets I will keep on keeping on and remind myself everyday that there is someone else who has it worse off. And that hurts as badly as  I do. I pray they can find the comfort that I am able too. And my friends thank you for keeping me in your prayers.  That means alot.

Lord I firmly believe you allow us to go through these things to have better understanding. Please allow me to learn from all these life lessons.