yeah. my friends they are gorgeous, skinny, and confident. sure i was pretty, skinnyish, but confident...hell noo. i would never be confident. i became anorexic in 7th grade (the first time around). i ate rarely and worked out much too hard. which was something that was not healthy or normal. but, people may ask...did you want to die? the answer is no. i just wanted to know what it was like for them to be everything that they were. no they did not always have it easy. but i would much rather have it like that than what i had. so i was caught in the middle of the second time in 7th grade. which was not an easy confrontation for anyone. i thought that was the worst had been done and that it would be hell telling my friends. but little did i know, that hell was only yet to come. and being anorexic, was one of the best parts of my life.  i will never regret it, but my life then was good. it just got worse and worse and worse from there.