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fluffyluggage"I found MDJunction at a time when I was struggling with so much. I
was so sick. I found a home, a place where people understood me, when
even my family doubted me. In MDJ, I found a place of refuge, love,
and support. I come here daily, to find my balance, to cope, and to
find that same support I've found from day 1. MDJ is my new family.
The friends I've made here will remain with me for a lifetime.
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WTF Name translation - My struggle

Do you care?

Apr 30 2012

This year has been pretty rough. I cant hold down a job and my family life is quickly spiraling downward. My doctor has suggested i apply for disability so i took the first step and applied. They sentme to a government appointed doctor who told me i was Scitzoaffective and had more anxiety issues than what i had listed on my application. These are things i have known for a long time but it is still hard to hear from someone new. Every time i see a new doc or counselor it is like opening my soul to a complete stranger. I almost allways think to myself "do you really care or just going through the motions".

I am kinda skipping around with this entry because i am having a hard time focusing at the moment but i need to get somethings off my chest and remember how much it helped me to be on MDJ.

My bouts of psycosis are getting worse and i am afraid to tell anyone but my doctor. i know my wife deserves to know but she has loads of stress allready and doesnt need my bullshit weighing her down. I cant afford to see my doc more than once every three months because i dont have health insurance and am a self pay. At $100 every 15 min. it gets expensive quick. i could probably find a cheaper doc but this one i feel comfortable with and he has helped me loads and loads.

Anyway i think this ramble is done for now, thanks for reading i guess. I hope you dont feel like it was a huge waste of your time.- WTF

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written by Dit, April 30, 2012
Things have been rough on you so sorry to hear this, psychosis is tough i had it once keep it in check. I hope you can find the right meds to keep this symptom to a minimum. Wishing you all the best for applying for disability. Here's a link to a fairly new group for Scitzoaffective Disorder:

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