Michael's Diary.. Intended to help

Been offline a while as you have noticed.. Between eye strain and jogging my lunches, its been hard to really get time for my daily agphobe stop, but I'm TRYING as best I can,.. I really miss campagor and want to make sure I stay in touch with all my good friends here.  Jogging has been going well, though the weather is starting to get colder in california where I live and I think I may have to hang it up in favor of doing the stairstepper during lunches.    My commute has been less challenging with each time I make it to work.. I can now sit in traffic for upwards of an hour without having panic (everday in silicoln sludge is traffic), though in the evenings, when going home, I suffer bad depresssion sometimes and loneliness.  I have had problems in the past with loneliness before getting married that have carried over even though I am.. Of course I sometimes wonder if the person I am with truly understands what kind of challenges I face as an agoraphobic. .. I can't just jump when the will calls for her to travel and SEE the country I brought her too.. I sometimes regret I wasn't more forthright about my problem before marriage but then I'm right back to the square one of loneliness.  I think I might not be the only agoraphobic having this problem.. Anyone care to comment on spousal support or lack thereof?  That might make a good thread..