relationships and batterd thoughts

Today was a semi productive/ irritating day. I finally got the courage up to go to the walk in clinic(as i dont have a family doctor i usualy go only to this one clinic so all my medical files are in one place) y regular thursday DR. wasnt in today which made me very nervous but i figured i am here i mise well get a few small items checked off my list of importance.

So with that sai i finally got a repeat for my blood pressure meds(been without them since mid january) . The Dr. scolded me for not going in sooner to get the meds as my BP is always 140+ without the meds. Explaining that i could stroke or worse. He wasnt mean about it just very concerned. I also got some amoxacilin for a tooth infection i have been nursing for almost two years now. I've been on IV fluids for this same tooth last october but been to afraid to have it pulled as i fear the infection is already in my nervous system. maybe these meds can clear it up a bit s oi can have it pulled.  I did ask him about the swollen lesion on my lip but he was to busy figuring out which BP med dose i was on.5 years ago i had my lip pierced and it wouldnt heal no matter what i did, so i removed it adnd let it heal. After 5 yeals of it being closed an abcess formed on the inside where the hole was. But at least i went and got some meds. I convinced my mother and my brother to come with me. They had been planning on going to the clinic for weeks now and just been procrastinating and not going. They felt accomplished as well so made my day of no sleep worthwhile.

 On a different note, I dont know if its just intrusive thoughts or not but i am getting the feeling that my BF is losing interest in "us". I dont know if hes flirting or talkign to othr girls ect,. but he makes me feel like he is. hiding his phone, wont look at me when we speak,texts me very little all night while hes at work, and he is very vauge on things i ask him. I know he has a very anti social attitude and he doesnt know why he treats me how he has/does but i am just worried hes going astray AGAIN. This time i dont think i can recoup from it if he does. 11 years off and on we have known/dated each other. Six years straight we have been officially togeher  and only one breakup    ( jan 21st 2012-feb 16th 2012)  i feel so guilty for having these thoughts that he might do it again. I know its from the first 5 years of our relationship's problems that i think this way but when i can move past this and let him get to know the real me without trust issues ahhhhh