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Memoir of an Insider

A look into the everyday life of a Woman trapped inside her own Mind.

Bewildered beauty

May 18 2012

Not really sure what you put in a first entry i joining a site that i possibly could end up being comfortable enough with telling my story.

I have become a very secluded person these past years. Each day is a struggle just to crawl out of bed. i scare easily and feel overwhelmed by the tinyest things.

i dont feel comfortable in my own skin and am always searching for a way to mask it. Having no support system at home, i wonder on a daily basis if i can really pull through this? i sit in tears staring at all the wonderful progress others have been doing and just how low i have allowed myself to fall.

Is all this pain worth it in the end i wonder? perhaps i'll find out one day.

Health Topics: PSTD, selfinjury

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written by DeslateFlwer, May 18, 2012

suppose to say "i fear joining a site"

written by catlover7731, May 18, 2012

Welcome to the group. I know that struggle to get out of bed. I am sorry you have no support system at home. Take it one day at a time and one day you will overcome this. (( hugs)).
Cheryl

written by lken, May 18, 2012

join them all and see what happens.

written by KittenMittens, May 18, 2012

I like Iken's suggestion! lol

Progress is measured by mindset and action. Your fear of joining a site is offset by the fact that you did it anyways. Good job!

Cheryl

written by DeslateFlwer, May 18, 2012

Thank you all so much for welcoming me to the groups. It takes me a tad to throw myself out there even just a little bit. i waited almost 2 weeks before making an account, just left the page open on a different tab. Letting it haunt me enough until i forced myself to just make the account already haha.

written by lovespeonies, May 19, 2012

Honestly it took me a year to join so you are so much braver than me. I know things are difficult for you right now but it can and will get better. Everyday you need to keep moving and if you have a setback don't get down on yourself. Keep looking forward.

written by lken, May 29, 2012

me to i joined long time ago and could not make sense in my writing, did not know what to say, sometimes it flows sometimes i go duh