Diary Entries for snowboardinggirl

A while since I last wrote

snowboardinggirl

Since I last wrote I stopped taking my Lamictal, I haven't noticed any changes yet. I keep telling myself that I don't really need my meds but I'm really just mad that my last 2 doctorsrefused to see me anymore. Neither one of them were "nice." But my insurance is almost over anyways so no more meds after that. I had a refill for the Lamictal but I just want to see how things go. I think I've been over medicated for a while now. I [...]

Started drinking again.

snowboardinggirl

I have been drinking a little bit. I realize that I'm really not supposed to drink especially since I'm taking meds for Bipolar and I'm starting to think the alcohol mimiced Bipolar, resulting in 2 meds for Bipolar and 1 for ADD. I think I'm depressed, with ADD. But I have no idea, and I've had 2 different doctors in 7 monthes who both decided they didn't want to see me anymore. I don't think I'm going to find a new doctor after this.&nb [...]

A glimpse into my boring life

snowboardinggirl

So I was planning on writing in this more often, but there isn't much going on. I don't think my medicine is working very well. I still can't sit still. I walk from room to room. I can't find anything to occupy myself. I am so bored. I guess I should be happy that I have a computer so I can access whatever I want. I just can't think of things to do on the computer. I heard a side affect of anti psychotic/ Bipolar meds is impaire [...]

A new Vaporizer

snowboardinggirl

So in order to feed my addiction I bought a vaporizer. Because I'm worried about my health. However it takes a whole lot of weed to fill it and get high off it. I can't believeit is July, time is going by so quickly. I haven't figured out if my Strattera is working . Or if I have major dicipline problems. I can't sit still and my fidgitiness is a huge problem. I don't know if I believe in medications anymore, even though I take Abilif [...]

Doctor Visit

snowboardinggirl

Today I went to my psychiatrist. He prescribed me 200mg Lamictal instead of 150mg. Mainly because I sleep way too much and I don't have very much energy. My doctor knows I smoke pot daily. I have a very addictive personality. After 110 days of not drinking I have been smoking more then ever. I need to stop. I need some friends that's what I need. I don't have any. As for my meds I'm going to take 10 mg more of Strattera and ta [...]

What a Boring life.

snowboardinggirl

My life pretty much consists of working 20 hours per week and sitting at home, or sleeping. I love sleeping I don't need weed when I sleep. Ever since I stopped drinking I am smokinga lot. But I've been a daily smoker for a loooooong time years. I even notice how stupid and bad my memory is. I am addicted so it's not just a matter of not wanting to for one day. My head tells me I need it when I wake up and when it wears off I need even mor [...]

No more Campral.

snowboardinggirl

Campral is for alcohol I haven't taken much of it for about a month. But I have a little more then 90 days now. You're supposed to take 6 pills a day 3 x a day. It doesn't make you sick. But I never drank on it.

I haven't gone to meetings because I can't sit still. That's why I started Strattera I hope I can stop fidgeting, and getting up sitting down, moving around not finishing what I start, forgetful, unfocused. [...]

Some sort of Sleep Disorder?

snowboardinggirl

Is there a such disorder as sleeping too much? I would think depression. I dropped my prescription off yesterday. So I wonder if it will work. Even if I do get up early there's is nothing to do. I can never do house work. I don't have my license but it's not suspended as of 05/20/08. Since I got 2 dui's in I think August of 2006. That's my life stupid choices. I wish my parents would've considered keeping me on m [...]

Wow. I had a crying attack!!

snowboardinggirl

I can't believe I cried today I don't think it was a Bi-polar depressive sympton this time I think my birth control got all messed up and something else is going on. Besides that I rang up 4,000$ of sales on the register today. Which is a lot. Still waiting to take my Strattera. The cost of my medicine per month is $110. I couldn't afford that so my parents have to help me. I wonder how much more we will pay. Thank goodness for insurance for [...]

Late night

snowboardinggirl

I'm keeping this journal to see if my Strattera is working as an anti -depressant as well as for attention deficit. I'm defintitely doing a whole lot better ever since I've been takingAbilify, Lamictal and Campral. 90 days ago I decided to stop drinking so the doc prescribed the Campral. My new doctor was wondering why I barely take the Campral I just don't feel like I need it. Anyways since taking Abilify i noticed my Manic attacks are few and far between [...]

Tonight

snowboardinggirl

Hopefully tomorow....test