Me and myself

I just called my pdoc.  He's trying to get me a bed in patient so I can do ETC.  I don't know what else to do.  Since the city I live in has no one that does it, it's a small place, I have to be transported by ambulence to a Dr. an hour away for the first few ETCs.  I still don't know if I even want to have them done.  I just want to be stable, for more than two months at a time.

My boyfriend is supportive, but he said this ETC stuff worries him.  But he said he's behind me 100%.

What else can I do?  It's too late for anything else, I think.  so much for my job. and school.

:*(

here we go again.....