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|Nov 13 2012|
Could Prednisone be the answer for me?
Ive not felt this human in over 3 years. I'm not holding my breath yet, I've only felt this good for a week. But it's been the most gloriousweek I can ever remember having. Maybe because I aprreciate it more than I ever have. How we be thankful for our health when we've never known what it's like to be unhealthy. Well now that I...
|Oct 04 2012|
I seem to only write when I'm feeling blue and my pain is high.
So whomever reads my diary entries, I really do have a great life in so many ways. I have a good husband of 26 yrs, we have3 beautiful kids, and one super awesome 21 month old grandson. Also, I have a young lady who moved with us when she was 16, I consider her my daughter. Along with many others who have stayed with us a...
|Oct 02 2012|
I am so so tired. I don't sleep regularly. Anymore, I almost get no sleep at all. And now with my Wellbutrin mg raised, I feel energetic but it's false energy, that I worry is harming me. Ihave become close to OCD about the way the house looks, so I'm constantly cleaning. Which is causing me so much more pain. Tonight I feel like every bone in body has snapped. I hurt everywhere, li...
|Aug 05 2012|
Yep... Woke up this a.m feeling so much better. I felt relief, thinking the flare was over, if only for a day. But now it's rearing it's ugly head, thinking that's it's sneaky. It started out in my arm, slowly moving down into my hand and then up into my shoulder, down my back.. Now it's all over my upper body.. The pain became so bad, I had to take a pain pill and now I...
|Jul 20 2012|
For my health, and personal well being, I avoid drama, and confrontation. Even though in my house it may be noisy and filled with people, there are never any arguements, no fights. I'm not sayingthat my kids have never argued, but two out of three are grown, the youngest is 17. They all get along beautifully. We all respect each other.
|Jul 19 2012|
I enjoyed this day!
Went to the hospital with my hubby for his colonoscopy. Waited for a few hrs in the waiting room (miserable part). Afterwards, he felt perfectly fine, so we went out to eatand then we bought a new fridge, and then he bought me a new love seat for our back deck. We walked around the store for quite a while. It was fun. We talked and laughed. We almost never get these ki...
|Jul 13 2012|
Trying not to be a big baby but how long does this need to go on?? I can't look to the left, without screaming pain shooting thru my shoulder and neck.. I thought for a while that maybe I slepton it wrong but it's only gotten worse as the day progresses.. I have moments where I don't think I can do this much longer.. I'm not suicidal, just beyond exhausted. Wiped out. My stomach...
|Jul 04 2012|
My nerve endings are freaking out and making me twitch and shooting really mean pain all thru my body...
Ajay has a friend over that's never stayed here before, and I'm trying to converse with them and my pain an twitching makes Brad look at me funny. I get embarrassed but Ajay gets up and without saying sword brings me a neurontin and Vicodin and a glass of water. A...
|Jul 03 2012|
This afternoon my husband and I cleaned the middle floor of our house and it looks so nice :) I was able to get ALL of the laundry done!! Plus... We made potato salad for tomorrow! Woo
|Jun 25 2012|
Can't figure out why I keep going into one flare after another with almost no time to breathe inbetween??
I hurt so badly with shooting pains between my shoulder blades. It's hurting bad enough that I am crying... I don't ever cry over physical pain..
Today was my sons 17th birthday. It's a good thing he isn't little expecting a birthday party. Lol. He made enoug...
|Jun 15 2012|
|Jun 06 2012|
Yesterday evening into the morning was miserable!! I got sick to ky stomach that turned into an all night thing. Dry heaves and then dark blood, only a small amount, but still.. What the heck?? I hadcold clammy sweats and was and some point.. I was miserable. Today I've spent just trying to recooperate. My rib cage is killing me
|Jun 02 2012|
Tomorrow I turn 44...
I really don't want to celebrate. Birthdays are for the living not the existing. And for the past 3 years now- I haven't been 'living'... I merely exist because there really is no other choice. Don't get me wrong- I'm anything but suicidal or ungrateful. I'm exhausted, in pain, disappointed, disillusioned, but I do have many happy moments...
|May 28 2012|
I could feel today coming two day ago, and then yesterday I knew for sure it was on its way... Woke up this morning feeling like a Mac truck drove right over me.. Nothing surprising or new. My legswere painful tree stumps, that dead weight feeling with shooting pains. I couldn't even bend down to pick anything up off the floor.. It traveled into my shoulders and everywhere. My pain meds don...
|May 20 2012|
Alrighty this is turning out to be quite the night. I had dinner and within an hour started feeling really crummy. I went up to bed for a while and laid down, woke up with a terrible belly ache, moreof an distended abdomen. A lot of pain, and very weak feeling.. What the heck?? I went and sat in the love seat on the back deck, fell asleep til 1ish, abdomen still distended and I feel super crumm...
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|May 12 2012|
I wrote for at least an hour, clicked save and POOF gone! It's way too long to rewrite for now... Maybe later?
It was about this friend whos been my friend for 30 yrs and today she blockedme on Facebook.....
|May 07 2012|
|May 06 2012|
This is just going to be me rambling to myself... Sometimes I won't even make sense, but I don't really care. I went to the Dr twice this week.. Got my blood work back. Negative on Lupusand Rheumatoid Arthritis. Whoop