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So here we are again... me trying to get you to see us as important ..like a couple weeks ago after all we have been through you promised "not for the first time" that you would get help... for yourself ...for us...you said tomorrow i will talk to the people from work and set up an appointment ...for chrissakes we have full coverage for this stuff...

 So I wait...

And yesterday I ask again what have you done to try to make this better... the simplest things I do upset you beyond any normal standards and yet you could have gotten help but...

 You answer well I did have to spend 600$ on my car so I couldnt afford any therapy...even though you really spent the 600$ on new brakes for your car so you could go visit a friend you havent seen in over 18 years 100 plus miles away...a friend from over 18 years ago over your marriage...

Obviously our relationship doesnt even compute in your mind or I mean so little to you that you put off what I feel we really need Which is therapy...

 I paid for the last few times a year or so ago when we went together... but you felt all of the shrinks blame was put on you and you couldnt do it anymore...Im sorry that I tried ...

I think you know what ive been trying to say here and for the last year or so...

I think you know what weve been asking each other...

You will always have a place in my heart but its time you made your own way in your life without me in it...

I really wanted our 10th anniversary to be special but deep down I knew we werent going to reach it... I gave you every opportunity to get there

You made your own bed...