Diary Entries for lizzyduh

i'm in love.

lizzyduh

but she wants space. we've lived together for 4 years and she wants to move out to see if that will improve how we are together. like, will it minimize fighting? will she react better to situations? will i react better to situations? will i stop drinking? will we both change for the better?

but i'm scared because having her with me every day is all i've known for 4 years. i miss her every second and sometimes i feel like i might die or something. as dramatic as it sounds, i [...]

i'm in love.

lizzyduh

but i'm scared because having her with me every day is all i've known for 4 years. i miss her every second and sometimes i feel like i might die or something. as dramatic as it sounds, i [...]

save me

lizzyduh

confession #1-i'm terrified of being alone... and right now... i'm alone.

Failure...

lizzyduh

I'm doing it right.

[it creeps out from behind every fucking corner]

Fucckking Kill Me

lizzyduh

So there's this girl I love. And, yea, I'm really in love with her, not just "attached"... i know the difference because I've held onto relationships because I just needed someone to be there. But she's different... I don't need her to be there, I actually WANT her to be there... We've been together for three years and my borderline behavior is starting to really get to her. I've been doing so much work on myself and have made A LOT of changes in my behavior [...]

Ugh...

lizzyduh

To be completely optimistic about everything going on in yourlife at any one moment is an utterly horrible decision. I’m not saying this because I’m a pessimistic person by any means of the word, however I am realistic. I know that no one means what they say 100%, no one is as “innocent” or as “real” as they claim to be, no one is honest enough to tell the truth all of the time and no one loves anyone else more [...]