I am now hearing voices. It started happening something fierce last night. It has been happening for months, sitcom-ish. It is like I am a silent observer to a t.v. show of only two peopleand they are talking really fast that I can't make out exactly what they are saying but can catch almost every second or third word. So anyway, last night these two hunters show up on my in head t.v. screen and they won't shut up , so I tell em too, and they talk back to me!!!!!!!!! I was like WTF?? scared me to shit so I sat up and looked around my bed to A. make sure I was awake and B. to make sure I was alone. So I lay back down and close my eyes, and those damn hunters are still there in their overalls and twangy voices, and thought...fukk it...might as well talk to em, lol, see if anything good is going on. So we are all just standing there, and mind you this is all in first  person view, me looking at them with wide eyes and them to my right. and all of a sudden a guy approaches us...I can't remember what was said, because when they are not talking to me, the speech is super fast, like Hammy on speed, lol. But next thing I know they kill him with a shovel and then just continue talking to me like normal, and I am like okie dokie, and I start talking back like normal, I am not scared and I don't feel threatened by them. After a minute, 2 little kids start walking towards us and I get scared, panic attack scared, my pulse starts to race, I start to shiver, and I feel like my life is in danger... I ask them if they are going to hurt the kids...the hunters just look at me and shake their heads...and start to walk toward them. I see the boys have something in their hands that is like dripping, by now I know they are not going to hurt them, not sure how I know, I think because the kids are smiling. I see the "dripping" things in their  hands are worms, lol. Soon wee are all sitting in the dirt playing with worms and I drift off to sleep finally. I am so tired of not sleeping. . . I am not sure if it is the Lithium, I thought it would make me sleepy??? Anyway so I called my talker doctor and I was so doggone hesitant to tell him about my hunter voices, cuz to me that just makes me a little more off my rocker, lol. Well he could tell I was already "off my rocker" as I was going a mile a minute like i had just smoked some great ass crack, which I HAD NOT. I am still typing just as fast..

Anyway...ok, so he said he think it might be a defense mechanism, as when i tried to go to sleep last night i started immediately thinking of guilty things and felling guilty, then all of sudden there were my "saving grace hunters", lol. So he said they were inner voices and not third person voices? I still don't understand what that means. but he told me to think about who those hunters might be and at first I couldn't but now that I think of it...I think it could be my talker doctor. He has a twangy hickey accent country boy thang going on...but is that weird? healthy? odd? Am I normal?