| May 23 2008 |
well, i have failed again to quit smoking. yeah i have my excuseswhich don't really mean a darn thing. still nothing but excuses.
my grandson is coming to spend the weekend. i love the little guy dearly but wow does he have behavioral problems. those problems are compounded by my son's lack of doing anything at all about them. no corner, no taking stuff away. let's him hit, scream, break, whatever without doing anything. i don't mean he should smack him or anything, but how is the little guy going to cope with life if he is not taught about consequences? i have an extremely strained relationship with my son so i cannot say anything. it will be as stressful as it will be fun. sometimes i feel like pulling my hair out when he is around (more because of son's lack of doing anything about the behavior) i know little ones are going to act up. i know it is normal. but this is not normal. little guy is angry more than he is happy. i worry there may be underlying issues. he is 3 yrs old, not potty trained and can only say a few words, and i do mean only a few. but i know if i say anything i will be considered an unloving gma.
so excuse or not i have decided to put off quitting until he goes back home to his mother. i don't want to be cranky with the beginnings of withdrawal when he is here. i know it sounds like i am using him as an excuse but i am not. i am taking full responsibility for my lack of courage and strength. i just know me and know it would be much easier if i could lay down, go for a walk, or whatever i need to do whenever i need to do it when i am going through the 3-6 day nicotine withdrawal. the habit part i will find a way around. i'm just worried about the nicotine withdrawal. and no matter what anyone says, i do go through physical withdrawals. nausea, dizziness, bouts of tears/anger/depression, cold sweats. whether they are caused by psychological issues or not doesn't matter. i will do better if i have the first few days to totally relax and have freedom to do what i need to do.
i am just worried about the haha you failed i will receive from my son
written by cinderella, May 24, 2008
ive been trying too, my dr agrees it's not a good time for me because of all my issues but i know i have to stop and soon, why dont you just try to cut down to start with and maybe even see your dr and ask for zyban, they were really helping me, until i got pregnant again and had to stop using them, then my pelvis fell apart then my back totally stuffed up blah blah the list goes on.... good luck and yes put it off to a time when you can relax, try to keep busy and have plenty of healthy snacks, like celery and carotts, even jelly and lots of fruit xxxx 
if you really want to quit just for you and not anything or anyone else, nothing can stop you. decide this: you want to or you don't want to and then choose and be ok either way
