| May 21 2008 |
dealing with the anxiety pretty well again today. was able to complete a poem/song i have been working on for a little over a week. i think its decent. not that it matters, i only write poetry for myself, family, and the very few friends i have. not like i am going to try to get it published or anything, lol. writing just helps me deal with my illnesses and put things into prospective.
my biggest problem the past few days of this anxiety attack is i keep forgetting to breath until my lungs burn. i know this can't be good for me but never have been good at the controlled breathing thing so i don't know what to do about it. it is causing light headedness that i totally hate. i really need to find a way to calm down but i don't know what is making me feel this way. without knowing what is causing it i am having difficulty addressing it. but regardless, i am still refusing to give in!
written by GoingHome, May 21, 2008
Don't give in!
My husband is bipolar and we are at the beginning. I too have anxiety, and think I had my first panic attack about six months ago.
There are days, like today, where I feel that any negativity will get to me.
Again, I lost my post. But the main part of it was that I am searching the internet to try and locate tapes (cassette tapes, dating myself) that a coworker had told me about while going through infertility. (I now have three great kids.) I believe they were from Boston University and refered to as the Mind and Body Connection. They were basically relaxation response.
They were great - they took you step by step to a babbling brook or the beach. The tapes engaged each of the five senses. They talked you through recognizing every muscle and relaxing them. They were very specific and so easy to follow. I think I gave them away because I can't find them. But need them and and now looking for them again. I will let you know when I find them.
I like this place because I think that amist this all, I am a positive person and need to get in touch with that side of me again.
Take care!
Susan