living with tourette syndrome.

I am coming up in my fourth of being a member on Mdjunction. I found this site on Google, i was searching for an online support group at the time,  I thought i would give it a try, At first I wasn't so sure about it. But no I've come to love it! The people on here have really become almost family to me.  I would like to thank all the on here that have helped me thr...

My mom has severe depression and bipolar. She has chosen to not be on meds. she has tried to commit suicide by oding on pills in front of me when i was six. that was scary. Sometimes she has thesecrazy ideas and wants to persue them, some of them are dangerous. Sometimes its like shes nolonger my mother shes this crazy person that i dont know. It makes me sad that she doesnt understand that s...

Well to begin this entry i will say i am currently living with my sister and my niece in Virginia. i previously was living with my dad. Okay so on july fourth my dad found out i was talking to a friendwhom he disliked and banned me from talking to. when he found out he went bizerc he grabbed me by my shirt and threw me into a tv stand. I went into my room and stayed there for two days until i got...

haven't written on here for a while. well this school year went by rather quick for me and it was a good time. In march i started two new pills for my ADHD and Bipolar. I am already taking RitalinLA 10 mg in the morning. I started Methylphenidate 10 mg at noon and Oxcarbazepine 300 mg tab 2x a day. They seem to be helping me alot to calm down and focus on things easier. though my muscles in my...

this week has been interesting for me... I had a rough week.. I have been very depressed.. i feel like im just going through the motions of life.. like im just a robot... doing what I am expected todo with no arguments or protesting.. same thing day in and day out. feel like i am not seeing the world in 3D more like 2D. i feel as if all my friends and family hate me.. also feel like I am alone...

We'll I am happy to announce that i have been cancer free now for a month. I am feeling a lot better. Im outside enjoying the sunshine. I can't believe that im free of cancer. Ifeel amzing. my hair is almost back to its normal length. Thankyou all for your prayers and  for keeping me in your thoughts. It helped tremendously....

Hi guys I'm back. First off i would love to thank all you guys for all of your prayers for me and for keeping me in your thoughts all this week. I feel alot better than i did before.  my headis a little sore still from surgery. only another week left in the hospital. i'll be happy when i can go home from the hospital....

Well VaB14 is doing very well. She still has a long recovery to go but we're going to kick this cancer in it's rear. She is sleeping most of the day. But when she does wake up. she tells me totell all you guys thank you and that this cancer is going down. She is really taking this cancer pretty well. Better then i could. She was only up for about 2 hours today. her pain meds knock her out...

this is VaB14's mom. I might be posting a few things here and there in her diary. Well let me say first that her doctors successfully removed the tumor. In all it took about four hours to remove it. I got to watch the whole surgery by sitting in a window above the operating room. She took about 2 hours to wake up. I thank all of you for your wonderful support that you've given to my daught...

Well my fever is gone. But very bad news the doctors said the reason i had a fever was because i have a golf ball sized tumor in the back of my head! I am getting surgery tommorrow to remove it. Prayfor my safety! i will keep you all updated on my recovery. My parents will be writing in here for me. so that I can rest. I am being prepped tomorrow at 6 am. The surgery will take a while. I will p...

well my fever went done a bit. its still 100. the doctors are worried because I've a fever for four days now! I'm tired of it. i have been peeling. i take an ice bath once a day.  I am goingto have to stay in the hospital until my fever goes back doen to normal. I've been getting chemo still. I can finally keep my food down. But i'm really tired all the time. i wish i could be...

well yesterday i was ok. but then at midnight i felt really sick to my stomach and my doctors say that if that happens i have to go in. i have been throwing up everything i eat. and i have a fever of 102. i have internet  on my labtop. i would write longer but i'm not feeling the best.

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 I had a round of radiation therapy today. it made me tired. i got to order off the hospital's food menu and for supper i ordered a fruit salad, baked potatoe, and some milk and got some vanillaicecream for dessert. it was yummy. it was a little bland though.  My track team decided to drop in to see me today at 7 pm. I had fun with them. The team made me a big get well soon card and...

Well I went through a blood transfusion today for the third time.  I'm having some radiation done tomorrow to rid of my tumor in my throat. It had been causing me to have respitory infection for the last month or so. I went in for that and because i've been brusing easily. Thats why they dianosed me with Acute myelogenous Leukemia. I had the doctor spell that out for me cus its h...

I was not feeling well for the longest time and then i got checked out by a doctor and they diagnosed me with Leukemia. I am currently at the hospital right now. I am on the hospital's computer. I've been here since April 15th. They have me on Chemo and I have lost all my hair..... I am devestated.... I am very weak from my rounds of Radiation.. I am very tired most of the time. I haven...

I don't know wat i want in life rite now. Do i want to go to college? Do i wanna date some guy? Do  i wanna do stuff with my life? Do i wanna go off and move to Colorado?? Probably all ofthese are yes. but i'm in the midst of being rlly rlly confused about myself. i don't know were to start?! i just sometimes wanna curl up in a little ball and cry i am rlly stressed about wat...

I feel like crying rite now!!!!!! My dad yelled at me yesterday because I didn't do something the way he wanted to!!!!! And then about someother stupid thing!! I don't like talking to him atall rite now!!I also broke up with my boyfriend! that was a good thing to do i guess! He was trouble! Sometimes I feel like I am not being heard by ppl and It bugs me! SOmetimes I feel like my Dad do...

I am doing an extra-curriculr activity every nite afterschool. It's sometimes hard to balance schoolwork, track practice, and still have time to do personal things and have time to my self and hang out with my friends. I don't know how I am ever going to pull it off. But i spose God will help me decide what's important and what's really not important. Goood NEWWS! My boyfriend i...

My Boyfriend Austin is 14 and I love him dearly. He's got a drug addiction problem though. Austin had back surgery due to schelosis and was on a very high dosage of pain meds and got addicted to themthat was two years ago. Austin was in a serious car accident in December 2 days before Christmas Eve and He broke his neck and the middle part of his back. My babie was in soo much pain that the do...

Love is beatiful , Love is gentle like the sea.

Love is kind, Love is like fire works.

Love is sweet like the air in an orange orchard.

Love is slow, Love is amazing

Love isanything you make it out to be.

But sometimes,

Love can turn sour like rotten apples,

It eventually can turn into hatred,

and it's hard to get that same feeling of love aft...

Ok so mother nature decides to come on Friday with it's "monthly Gift". I feel like really dizzy and have the worst cramp EvER!! Sucks!! I was dizzy the day before that to! UGh! And thenon Sunday I start feeling dizzy and fall down during Church!! It was horrible! Never had it happen before. And on Monday I felt like throwing up and got really dizzy again!! And Today my stomach fe...

I hate living at my house sometimes!! UGH!!Today my Daddy yelled at me twice!! ANd I didn't do anything!! :( I hate his negative attitude!! I just go in my room and read. I love him anyways!! He yelledat me today just because I didn't eat that much!! I don't eat much because I am trying to stay lean and skinny for track, but i guess my Dad thinks i am turning anerexic. I can't beli...

Sometimes I feel like I have the weight of the world on my back!! I have a lot of responsibilty and sometimes It feels as if I might burst. I also have a lot of pressure too do well an succeed in life. sometimes it's good pressure... other times not so much. Sometimes I feel like i should give in into peer pressure but that's not the way to go for me. I am my own person and am going to sta...

Sometimes i think that bottling up my feelings will help....... but that is a drive for suicide right there. Sometimes I don't like having breakdowns. I guess peer pressure plays a big role in that feeling. Sometimes it hard not to give in to peer pressure. Because it seems like society thinks that Breaking Down and having normal human feelings is wierd and unnatural.  Society thinks t...

I woke up this morning feeling happy and content. But, then I felt sad because I miss my dead grandma. Then I  was poed at myself for still feeling sad about my grandmother being dead. I mean shesbeen dead for little over a year and I am still a little sad about it. I don't know why I can't just get over the face that shes dead. So a rough day for me. I went for a long run  ...

I'm depressed this weekend. I'm lonely and don't have anyone to hang out with. My life seems really troubled right now. My Dad has Seaonal Affective Disorder. (SAD). He's really negativethis time of year. He gets really hard to live with. I mean I love him. He doesn't hurt me. His negative attitude is just really hard to live with sometimes. So i have to ignore him sometimes. b...

I went to see my doctor on tuesday this week. They added a new doseage of medicine. Instead of taking my Ritalin LA in the morning only I had them add a dose that I will take one in the morning and oneat 12:15 at school. The new change has been working out great for me. The Ritalin helps keep me focused on my school work. Because before the dose would wear off at noon. Which would cause problems....

Well the holidays went well for me. I was pretty busy with family and such. anyways, i'm sorta depressed rite now because i miss one of my family members. i also had bad mood swings yesterday duringschool. not fun. i was really down yesterday. I think its because of the weather being cold and such. I'm really worried about my eye sight its been kinda blurry when i'm taking notes dur...

wow...time goes by fast!! I hadn't relized that Christmas is just right 'round the corner! holidays kinda sneak up on ya!! well, anyways today at school was great. My stomach is feeling alot better!! It was just a lil bug. The one thing bout the Holidays that makes me sadd is people at hospitals that dont have any family memebers come and visit them!!! I'm thinking maybe bout sending h...

Sorry I haven't wrote for a while. I was very busy over this last weekend!! Thanksgiving was a charm. It was fun!! OK soo today went ok at school. It could have been a lil better....just cuz itsMonday!! If ya know what i mean!! I sure tomarrow's gonna be just fine!! I hope soo!! I'm feeling better this week. Although my stomach hasn't been feeling the best latley. maybee its jus...

Oh i had an okay day. It was kinda tough today. I had a few problems today. Boy did my face jerk around alot today!! I couldn't get it too stop!! that's the one thing I hate about Tourette!! I can't control my tics!! sometimes it gets soo bad i can't even write a paper!!! which sucks!! I also didn't sleep very good! i couldn't really fall asleep. so it was pretty late be...

I don't understand why some people can't just accept people just the way they are!! I mean what has society come too!!!?? People are soo rude sometimes!! they stare at people and make fun of themjust because they are different!!! well anyways its a great day soo far. i'm not looking forward to going back to school on Monday!!...

Its not very easy living tourette syndrome because a lot of people don't understand what it's like. and my face jerks around a lot!! which is hard sometimes because i get stared at  a lot. I sometimes get teased to because of it. Well i had a pretty good day @ school. I had only one hard moment. I was sorta upset over a science grade that i had got on  a test. but other than t...