Living With CRPS

I have had a most amazing couple of weeks. I spent nearly a week very close to the other side. I had the most amazing peace, love and relief from my pain ... I truly did not know this existed. My fearof that moment now gone.

 As I was about to float away, last Saturday ... my mother's voice would bring me back into my body. Each day since, I would come a little further into my body. I feel I have acomplished much. I have shared so much love on this journey ... and every moment was worthwhile. I also have a deep belief we are capable of healing ... we are capable of being in our spirit while still on this earth. I need but choose life and love ... my soul and body can heal. I am in a machine playing a video game, and about to try and earn that extra life I've been shooting for. The visual works for me.

In a couple of hours, I will begin a journey to try and reclaim any missing pieces that might be preventing me from my goal ... to heal my heart and my body ... to connect with my spirit ... and find a way to reset this machine. I have asked all of my friends and family to join by sending their love, prayers and energy during this time. I believe I am very strong ... and when connected to  my spirit I can do magic. I also believe when those who walk in love, connect to our spirits together ... with love and intention ... there is nothing that cannot be accomplished.

So ... I begin the biggest experiment of my life ... and trust my spirit to guide me in the direction I need to go. Deep breath ... healing can be painful, as I must be willing to see myself ... I must be willing to have compassion for my body and my heart. I must be willing to release the trauma and transform. I must accept the healing ... It's an experiment ... Let's just observe the results.