Livin La Vida Loca

 So very much has happened and I am deciding where to start...The biggest and best is that my son.Ron. and his fellow soldiers are back from Iraq..What with the drawdown, their mission was cutshort and they are safely home...

I had asevere flare up for several monthes and it was all I could do to get out bed, but I am now better....I hadn't had one this bad in all the ten years o...

 Haven't written since Nov and believe me I have been BUSY...what with the holidays and all.,I feel like I haven't had time to take a deep breath.

My youngest son,Jason and his family were here after Xmas from ga. I hadn't seen my granddaughter, Emma , since she was a year old. She is now 3 and very much a little lady. Jason is now back at home at Fort Benning and is spo...

I feel as if I have been gone forever. I have finally( I pray) made it through this last long bout of flare up. So much has occurred and I and hpoing to be back regularly. My son,Ron, got married yesterdayto Kim, his soul mate. Long story but  after 14 years my dream for him has happened. Bad news is that he will be deployed again in Jan 2010 to Kuwaait for a full year. He will be escortin...

Sometimes I feel as if I have the weight of the world on my shoulders. I sit here in my home most everyday and my phone seems to never stop ringing. MY FAMILY. Everybody seems to be having problems and call me for answers. I don't always know what to tell them to do and when you do give them advice. do they use it?????? NO.

I basically have the mindset that pe...

So very muchnhas gone an and writting here is the best way to catch up. I had to go offline sometime back and I nearly went nuts not being able to talk to all my friends online. Well, I am back andtrying to catch up with everything. OMG, this group has surely grown.

 I was approved Full Disability in July, got first check on Aug.3 and back pay on Aug 17. The first thing I did was pay...

 I am still waiting for this fatigue to decrease but I don't think it will. I stay tired no matter how many breaks or rest periods I take. Sometimes I am afraid to go to sleep as I may notwake up.

Summer is here and the heat and humidity is already doing it's best to drag me even further dowm. There just seems to be NO middle comfort zone. I have already had to start using A...

I haven't written for awhile. I have been back on meds for a month or more and as usual the fatigue has increased. That is one of the reasons that I hate them. I have done better with the Flexeril. My muscle spasms have decreased  and that in itself is a good thing.I sleep from 10pm until the alarm goes off at 7 am. but I am sooooooo stiff and sore when I get up.  I applied for SS...

 I had a dream last night, the first in so ever long.  I was on the stage at our high schools senior play. I took  dance in school  and I had a natural rythem. My body moved in ways that were a wonder to behold. It was a combo of ballet and classical.  I got the lead and God was I ever so proud.

 I always loved to dance. I would even dance when I cleaned my h...

 For nearly a month now we have been working on this banking problem. I am, to say the least, so stressed with it all that I could just scream.. BUT, it will all be over on the 9th of this month.. I can take no action against the bank as they were just "DOING  THEIR JOB"  I have tried to explain to the collection people the SO has no money to pay this debt. We tried for...

 On Feb 19 our assets(checking acct) was frozen because of a garnishment from an old Sears acct.. The only money going into that acct was my SOs Disability check, all that we live on.. I didn't find this out until I was going to balance our acct. on Feb 25...I panicked big time to hear we were  ----- overdrawn.. I called bank and was told we would have to go to court to clear this up...

  She is my inspiration, my hopes and my dreams....She is loving, kind and  so caring...She is my first born grandchild and the bond we have is never ending...I love all my granchildren asall grandmothers do, but she will always be my heart.

 Jordan has had Asthma since the age of 2 and also had severe Exema from age 2 - 5. Anyone who has ever had this knows that it is VERY...

 I had my apt. with Dr. Fitz. (ortho) on Feb 18. Results of the lower back MRI confirmed DDD and it is pretty bad already. Also shows arthritis. He faxed Johnsons for my blood results for Vit. D and arthritis  and Vit D was really good and Sed rate did show whatever for Arthritis..NOW, when the Dr. from Johnsons sent me letter about blood results it said " no indencation of Arthr...

 Last Wednesday, I went to Social Services to apply for Medicaid,and was told that I would also have to apply (again) for SSI or Disability.  I  got absolutly sick right then and there....I think this  SS worker thought that I was totally nuts.   The reason that I need to re- apply is because the DDD is a new diagnosis since DENIAL for Fibro in 2006.  &nb...

This morning I have been watching the Memorial service for little Caylee... and my mind goes back to Mathew, whom we called Mattie.

 He was the son of a coworker, 4 years old. Mattie wasoften at the hotel as his Mom had no babysitter some nights, so he would sleep on a little cot in the office. When Mattie didn't show up, his Moms boyfriend would have him at home .  Mattie...

My fibro pain has leveled off at around 2-3 for the past several days.. The weather has been really good. 60's and sunny. But, I  got up yesterday and my right knee is killing me,, I fell over  6 monthes ago and twisted it and for no clear reason it is as if  I did it again...Can't stand to bend it and sure can't stand to stand on it....I used the knee brace and I did...

Haven't written in awhile but the things are not much differant.. Pain is still up an down.  Tired to the bone.. Only thing new are these crappy headaches.. Oh, my Ortho apt was changed to Feb18th but the nurse called and did tell me I have two ruptured disc andd Doc will discuss all with me when I come back...  We did have a small snow this morning and it's already gone but it w...

well, the holidays are over and the new year is here  Nothing is any differant . I am still trying to babysit jayden.. I had the MRI onthe 2nd and will see ortho on the 8th.. The back is still a bad issue and of course the Fibro is not much better.. I am so very tired and just want to slow down, but, Ron leaves for Fort Picketton the 8th as his Guard unit will be on duty for the Innauguration...

John Denver has always  been the idol of my life in songs.... It's as if he pulled my heart out in the words of his music..On Christmas day, I always play my tape of his music to remind meof the joys that LIFE has blessed me with... I am just a country girl at heart and MY life has always been to bring peace and joy to others.. Just simple things in life like "I love you" or...

 I have updated my profiles and added a picture of my youngest granddaughter( Jasons youngest) Her name is Emma Reese.  I don't get to see her often as her Mom has a hard time gettingoff work when J ason decides to visit here.. I do talk to her on the phone and she has a picture of her  Nana that she carries everywhere...

 Jason has been here since Monday and we ha...

and it has absolutely nothing to do with Fibro. I have been following a news story for many monthes about a little girl named Caylee.. To day they think they have found her ramains..I don't knowhow many others a familiar with this story but it began back in July.... I don't know what to think .. I had prayed for so long that she was still alive, as I know so many others have too... I am...

I have been focusing on the back problem for a week or so and I am getting that under some control. I have been wearing the back support when I take care of Jayden. WELlllll I have also been stoopingdown when I need to pick him up and NOW my knees are killing me by the end of the day.. Am I totally falling apart or what????? 

The Fibro is still acting up too.. We have had the crazie...

 I have been in a really bad place for a few days as I had gotten my hopes up that the back pain was going to be easily solve and fixed... Well, it's not.. It is just another thing that is goingto be long lasting and require more  work on my part to live with....I am in a situation that I cannot change for now. I must continue to babysit as we need the money so that I can go to the d...

 I have certainly enjoyed the sunshine and warmth and will be sorry to see it leave, but that's the way Oct, is here.  I start back on the Lyrica tomorrow.   I have apt. with Xrayon Mondat for back and then will go to see Orthopedic Doctor as soon as apt set up.  Hoping it's not arthritis..... But then again I am getting to that age when everything else falls apart...

 At my appt. on Fri.,we discussed the problem of the baaaaaaaaaaaad dizzy spells and she told me to stop taking the Lyrica for a week. Well, by yesterday All the dizziness is gone. As that is theonly med I am on that had to be the cause. I will stay off the whole week and try it again to be sure. I am not getting much relief from it anyway.......will use davocet  until then as I still ha...

yesterday I jumped in and joined in other conversations and actually voiced my thoughts on the various subjects. 

 after all the years of negativity from family, doctors and then thedisability judge, I became sooooooooo angry that I tore up my journals, stopped talking about My pian or anything else to do with Fibro. I put myself through 2 years of living _ _ _ _ . In June (200...

   Yesterday I spent the day visiting my Daughter-in-law abd grandchildren . That part was great as I hadn't been on an outing in monthes( other than trip to do graceries  ECT)  On the way back I became very dizzy, nauseaus and shaky all over. By the time we got to home I was pale and felt as if I was going to pass out. Leo had to help me into the house as my haed was...