|Feb 09 2009|
I posted at the boards a few weeks ago that I thought I was going to leave Brandon. It had gotten so bad, not so much between him and I as much as with his kids. He refuses to have any discipline, and rules, chores, any adult supervision. His oldest son is doing drugs and stealing and according to Brandon, we have to ignore it because his son might choose not to come to our house. Too many other things to mention, but it makes it unfair to my kids. I put my foot down and said I would no longer keep his kids when they are suppose to be at their moms.
Im trying to drop some dead weight by getting rid of things I dont need. Selling collections and such, lightening my load in the event of needing to make a quick exit. It breaks my heart to even think about it, but he isnt taking his meds, he is irrational and narcisistic half the time and sometimes, I cant even stand to be around him.
I havent left, I havent even made any arrangements but it feels good to say "i can leave and be ok". Its progress. I know that this is not the lifestyle I want for my kids, Im making baby steps. Maybe one day I really will leave...it seems more likely than the notion that he will take his meds and keep taking them and decide he is going to be a family with us and have a fair, sane household.
I hope that one day I will look back on this experience and be content with the choices I make.
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