Life kind of

So I woke up today, and went to stand up from bed to find that yet again it was not going to be that easy. Every move felt like a part of my body being ripped out of socket. REA, they think. Giardia mostlikely cause. Such a little thing, something that generally causes a short term bout with the runs and nausea in most people.Unless you happen to have IDS. Then it does a lovely trick and goes through your whole body tunneling through every part of you. Just me or is that just totally not fair. I feel like dying half the time, and annoyed and irritable the other half. But I guess that is how it goes when you are being eaten alive and living off anti-parasitic medications and herbs. I just wish there was some way out. I just want it all to stop right now so bad that I don't know what to do. I am afraid to touch anyone in fear that they might get it, or that I might catch something on top of it. I spent 12 hours in a waiting room at the best ER in our city because I had not been able to stand up and take care of my kids for three days, just to be given yet another pain script and told to tell my doctor. Yeah that doctor where you have to beg to be sent to a specialist just to have them screw up the paper work yet again leaving you just where you were to start with. All I know is I'm tired of trying to be strong and keep moving and being drugged up.