Life and Love in a BP relationship

Amazing what being at home and getting rest or in a hospital being disturbed constantly. The wife's made a big improvement over the past few days. We're making sure she gets plenty of rest andshe's on a consistent med schedule. The doc said it will most likely be months before she gets over the pneumonia but he was very optimistic about her progress so far.  She had one bad reboun...

Like the title says it's been a rough one for a bit now. My wife was feeling sik 3 weeks ago and we thought it was the flu or a bad cold. We treated it as such and did all of the over the counter meds she could take that didn't screw with what she's already on. We had some improvement over the first weekend aand thought we had it beat then week 2 began. Over a period of 4 days she stea...

Soooo I haven't had much time to do much more than take care of day to day life in the past year hmm maybe more I really can't remember. Anyway We've had a tough time over the past couple of years, not with each other just life in general. Our son in law passed away unxpectedly a couple of years (it's been that long already?) ago and things are finally at a good place for our daugh...

With stability comes complacency. The wife has been dealing with a bout of depression for a while now. She seemed to be doing o.k. dealing with it, but I guess I was waaaaaayy wrong. About a month agoshe was pretty down and trying to decide if she needed to go to a hospital. She talked to a crisis councelor and seemed a little better. I guess I missed her putting on her mask. About a week after th...

It's been a good while since I've written anything in the old diary mainly because so little has been happening after the wedding and moving. My wife's still stable the doc increased her lamictal one week to help with her mildly depressed mood and the extra dose made her sick. We took her off of the higher dose and she was better the next day. She stayed in her flat mood...

Seems like it's been years since I've been around here. Things have been absolutely crazy (in a good way tho) around here. We finally got everything moved and are getting finances organized slowlyand settling in to life's routine here. Nothing major going on with my fiance she's doing great mostly because she no longer has to deal with all of the everyday stress her grown kids kept...

Haven't been in the groups for a bit now just too damn busy!!!! My lovely fiance has been in and out of mania since the first of the year and we've been dealing with that alot. Weddingand living plans aren't quite complete and she's stressing herself about all of it now. The past 3 weeks she's been between full manic to level. It's either go like hell and get ev...

So far the new year has been a serious bitch!!!!! It started with mania that got pretty rough then passed. Now it's back again because of a total misunderstanding with a M.D.  Seems like it's been nearly impossible to keep stress related triggers at a minimum for her lately. She has high colseterol and when the doc explained everything she took it completely out of cont...

Just when I thought things had settled down another stress trigger showed up last week. Two weeks of hypomania then almost two months of full blown mania and I knew we'd appreciate therest from it all. Well not in our world, no way always something happening. My fiance's son had been having problems for a little while so he came and asked us to take him back to his pdoc for hel...

Looks like the mania is on the way out sllloooowwwwwlllyyyy! The emotional roller coaster continues just not so severe over the weekend. I got home Thursday nite and things were lots better. The talk we had about what set off the emotional flood helped. We went out that nite to visit friends and eat just to keep busy and focused on other things. The weekend went very well connsideri...

Loks like I've gotta disappear for a little bit again. Things aren't real good for my fiance right now. She's been doing her best dealing with her mania but it's getting hardfor her. The racing thoughts are playing hell with her and the past few weeks of stressful situations are weighing on her and she's jumping to conclusions about alot of things at the moment. We...

All I can say is when triggers attack look out!!!! We're just pulling up from a two week stress related manic episode that started a day or two after Christmas or something like that. There were no chapels avalible for the wedding date we picked (grrrrrrrr) then her daughter had a major blow up with her husband (we had to go get her and the police were involved too long a story) th...

The change in meds is moving along with in my opinion mixed results so far. Yes she's not as depressed as before. She's slowly cycling and has developed some insecurity issues. Nextweek she'll be at her full dose so I'm hoping for the best. Maybe after a week or two she'll improve and stablize. There's alot going on in life just now. Her son's giving us trou...

We got back from our 1000 mile ride through the mountains of Oklahoma and Arkansas late Sunday evening. The trees were just starting to turn and the ride was cool the whole way. We saw the pdoc theday we left for a quick med check with my input on the subject. The doc was happy with things so far and said everything was progressing as expected. My concern was the new meds were causing her...

The new script seems to be doing it's thing so far. Atleast the depression isn't so severe anymore. We're just a few weeks into this and have increased the dosage once so far. Haven't noticed any major side effects yet thankfully. We see the pdoc tomorrow and I'm going too. The one thing that I've noticed and is a concern of mine even this early in the new treatment is the...

My fiance's pdoc is a genius!!!!! This is the reason we are so comfortable with her and have been with her for so long.....Last Monday we had an appointment and told the doc how life's been forthe past 6 weeks or so. She was really concerned and told her she should have called while she was off meds for this change. My fiance was so depressed during this time and was fighting so hard to ke...

Oh damn the doc prescribed a new med today and as I found out again. She started on lamictal today 25mg to start with a target of 200mg per day. I just got the short version of  howthe appointment went because we're also dealing with an issue from my ex. I don't hide anything from my fiance and laid out the details of whats happening with my ex problems which isn't...

Been working 60 hour weeks again and wasn't home for 2 days last week. We went to our friends to work the bugs outta that 31 year old bike and visit. Things went great we went out on thetown the day we got there and had a blast good music and company a few drinks and a cool night made for a great night. We got up early and got ready for the day and a short ride. Things were going g...

My fiance got me a little nervous yesterday. We talked for a minute early in the morning and she sounded bad. I tried calling and checking on her fro the rest of the morning with no answercause she didn't have it in her to talk then. She sends a text that she's really down and wanted me to come home early. I was at an on site project and couldn't. For this I felt bad cau...

Went home thursday evening wondering who I'd find waiting for me only seeing small improvements in mood during tne week. Was a little suprised to find my lady in a somewhat better moodthan she has been in a while. We talked while I took care of the weeks laundry and other things that needed my attention. Things are improving definately going up with only slight backwards movement n...

The day was long and slow. Met some new people here and welcome y'all glad to have ya. My fiance just can't seem to get over the hump climbing from her latest run of depression. She's really trying and I'm there to help when she slips. I let her climb and she hits a wall so I let her settle back and do whatever she needs and wait to help. I had to drive out and put a ti...

We were given a motorcycle last week and I needed to go and get it Friday morning early. So I call the night before and ask if she wants to come with me and pick it up. That didn't go very well at all.......Got snapped at about having things to do that morning and being busy and alot of excuses. O.K. fine I said and went by myself. Poor woman was at the bottom of the depression...

There's gotta be some way for me to better deal with her depression. I've gotta watch myself or I'll take things personally and say something I'll regret later. So far I've done good I on't let her snappy replies get to me. We want to ride a rally next month and a friend is gonna give me a bike to ride all I have to do is go pick it up. So  call and ask...

Well we made the weekend. She was still depressed when  I got home Friday morning. I brought flowers and a card which helped her dark mood alittle. Friday night was o.k. we took thingsslow seeing as how she was in the bed all week long coming out to eat when she got hungry. Everyone in the family said good luck when we left Friday evening cause she'd been a handful all week...

Well the last summer holiday is here and things are looking good so far. My fiance is almost back from her 2 week depression. She said things are looking better and she feels lots better today. Should have seen it coming cause she was between stable and manic for a long time. Seems that a rough day and weather changes started it and I helped her along one morning. We talked about it la...

You know living an hour away part time is hard. My poor baby she's so down and I'm at a loss as to what to do for her. She said that I don't need to come home early that the kidsare there and things are o.k. so far. She dosn't say much when we talk and the conversation is one sided for the most part. I had her talking a little after work prolly the longest amount of tim...

Well a new week begins thankfully. We went through an awkward weekend which ended o.k. We had a small bump in the road Saturday nite that turned out to be just 2 very tired people. Our communicationwas not like usual cause of what we went through last week. The only thing I can say is we got through. I left for work last nite instead of today cause all we did when we got home was nap a...

Well I'm starting this to help me when I lose  perspective on life with my girl and maybe even start to see some kind of pattern with how her BP cycles. Anyway we hit a big bump inthe road Monday. Things we're extremely misunderstood and taken way out of context. There wasn't any big blow up. Absolutely no violence, just hurt feelings. I'm not sure yet and can'...