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Failure

May 21 2012

I relapsed my almost 2 years of not purging. I feel like such a failure, and I feel addicted to it again. I wish I hadn't done it, but I couldn't handle it anymore. I see my psychiatrist tomorrowso....I guess I have to tell her. Meeh D: this sucks.

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My gosh..
Mehhh
Dang
Hmph.

Well.
Hmm..
Yes

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written by PhilPhil46, May 21, 2012

Please tell her.
You are not a failure, you had a relapes we all do at some time or another. Just don't allow it to beat you down. You didn't purge for 2yrs! that is a great accomplishment!

you did it before and you can do it again. Just got to figure out what triggered it this time, and how to handle those urges in the future. smilies/wink.gif

we only fail when we stop trying. Hoping the best for you in the days to come. Hugs.

written by rlt, May 23, 2012

Congrats on the 2 years of winning with this disease. You conquered it before and WILL do it again. Forgive yourself and hang in there!

written by ecs150, May 27, 2012

Wow, 2 years is awesome! The worst thing you can do is beat yourself up about a relapse. I also had a relapse recently after being "sober" for a year and a half. It was so hard. But the fact it bothers you..it sickens you..it hurts your heart so badly is a GREAT sign that you are on your way to recovery (well, at least that is what my therapist tells me!) Hang in there!

You can always start over!! It's a new fresh day!