Lalleana's Journey

Well, I have been spending time just regrouping. I have recently noticed a pain. I believe it to have been associated w/ the D & C... really, I don't care if it is or isn't I just now havethis huge fear that the procedure went somehow wrong. I am sure it is partly my nerves, but this pain, this sharp, intense, real pain is not in my head. They told me to go seek counseling. That my guilt was manifesting itself in my ovaries???? This road has been so long and difficult. I am starting to feel like.. "how dare you throw me something else!!" (to God). I want my body back. I want my life back. They always say... just when you thought you knew someone..... apparently it can apply to yourself as well. Frustrated tonite, but hoping for something better tomorrow.