My daughter is just turning 4 this Sunday and once again I am in full run trying to get everything done.  We had a bday party for her preschool class today and presents tonight from us and thenHubby Mom tomorrow and then on Sunday is My mom.  Then next weekend is a bday party up in northern Indiana with my sister and a few relatvies.  Then the following weekend is a party here with all her friends and family here.  AHHH crazy!  My pain has been manageble it seems with meds of course my pain hasn't been manageable without meds in months.  I wake up every morning feeling like a truck ran me over and then I have to wait about an hour before I can do anything I feel so horrible.  This morning I woke up with my shoulder hurting and my right hand swollen and I couldn't close it into a fist.  So even after meds it's still painful but at least it's not killing me I wasn't sure what I was going to do and my Rheumy Dr. is not in on Fridays.  I am very very tired so this is probably going to be quick.  I already taken my tranquilzer so I go in and out of sleep here.  But I feel it's important to keep somewhat current with this site.  I love the people here at MDJunction the FIbro board welcomed me wtih open arms since day one and this is a forum I would like to stick with.  It has just become harder because fo the fact that the only time I have to do computer stuff is at night or earily in the morning and now at night I am drugged sleepy and in the morning my baby is now waking up with me.

Tomorrow I am going on a walk for all the lost babies at our hospital.  I have lost 3 children and so they are going to name them as we walk this is my first year but I think it's going to be really special.  I am missing my daughters soccer game so she is a bit upset but all in all i think it's going to be really a good thing.  My mom is coming with me instead of my hubby because she took the loss of my daughter very hard and as well as hubby needs to go to soccer game.  It will be nice to get out and just reflect.