Today has been bad and good all in the same time really.  I hope the bad will actually turn out to be good in a odd since.  I got turned down from a internist quite abruptly really but atfirst it hurt my feelings kinda bad but you know if he can't help me I don't want to go to him anyways.  So I have been kinda down today and not feeling well at all.  My IBS is really messing with me lately.  I went from extreme constipation to the complete opposite I am in great pain in my upper back and shoulders now and my legs have ached all day long.  I am suffering from extreme fatigue today hardly can do anything at all.  This is one of them days that happens all to often that I am embarrassed to have my husband come home to have to cook and clean the kitchen since I am unable to today.  I am trying to get some laundry done which is a feet in itself.  The good news is that I had called a Rheumatoligst and left a message and well I had already talked to one that required a referral and I called my pcp and they said I would have to be seen ahh there goes more $.  Anyways after I had called for a referral another Rheumy called and they don't require referrals and they believe and treat and diagnose Fibro.!!   So I have to have my records faxed over from the pain doc and the pcp and then i go to them next wednesday!! YAY..  Finally maybe just maybe someone that knows what I am talking about when i say i hurt all over!  So I need to just hold out another week that seems like a really long time but i guess I have went over 9 months now with hardly any relief at all.    I have started to get kinda depressed over the whole situation and thinking that I am a huge burden to my family and all these doctors seem to think I am crazy maybe I am crazy and I was starting to think I should just deal with this no matter how hard it would be but now i don't have to i have another option!

 Kristi