Kickin' Panic's butt.

Tuesday was completey panic/anxiety free for me! I don't know what I did but it was an amazing feeling. I didn't even have the slightest anxiety at the end of the day and that's usuallywhen it's the worst for me.  Yesterday was still good but I did have some panicky moments. They were fleeting however and it didn't take much for me to get rid of them. Also, for the past four nights now, I've been able to sleep. I mean really sleep without dreams or fears. Just good, sound sleep. I think that I'm doing it, I really think I'm winning. I joined a bible study group at church and am also getting to know my neighbor much better. She's an older woman and I know that she gets lonely. The kids love her and I love having someone to talk to. I am going to a weekly group yoga class that I love. I make it a point to call one of my friends from Wyoming once a week. I continue to apply for jobs with fingers crossed and prayers to the heavens that I will find my path. I think that by me reaching out I am getting to the root of my problem. I felt cut off from others. I felt friendless. I felt worthless that I couldn't find a job. I felt at fault that I wanted my family to move here and we aren't doing as well as we were in Wyoming. All of this stuff led to me feeling down and stressed and then I started have panic attacks and anxiety. But this is not who I am. I am a social person. I love to laugh. I love to help others. I love to make money:) So all in all, I am being proactive and it feels good. Now if only I could get over this cold. Uck.