Kickin' Panic's butt.

After feeling sorry for myself a bit yesterday, I reopened my Panic Away book and began reading. I took some good advice from it on the anxiety issue and it worked. Again, it's mostly about acceptance. Acceptance of all things, even crazy, scary thoughts. By struggling with the thoughts and anxiety I was only making my situation worse. So I did it. While my kids were still at school I took a drive and just let it go. I can't explain it but I didn't fight it, I didn't wish it weren't happening, I didn't worry about it and it just suddenly felt like a weight lifted off of me. I instantly had a smile on my face and just felt better and more excited about the day. I went to the gym and while entering my kids held open the door for a handicapped man and he had to tell me several times how impressed he was with my kids and what a good job I was doing. This just added to the positive things I was feeling. Positivity Brings Positivity. I had several more compliments yesterday and a good workout. I did everything I wanted with my kids. We watched movies, ate pizza and did a game of catch and release with fireflies. We had to name every firefly we caught before releasing them. It was fabulous! Then they got to sleep on the air mattress. I still had a bit of a headache so I popped  few Tylenol PM and I slept like a rock. I think I got about 9 hours of sleep. Today I still feel great and am continuing to reread my program. I have to also give a shout-out to those of you who always respond to my entries. There have been several times when just the words of my supporters have helped me change my attitude, have given me hope or have helped to reaffirm that I am going through this for a reason. I cling to that feeling when it gets rough. I am becoming stronger, more compassionate and learning to love myself more than I ever thought possible. I hope this for all of you as well and I am so glad that I have found you all on this journey.