i am so insanely depressed today...i just want to be in bed.  i have an exam tomorrow so i can't sleep because i need to study.  that exam stress is just adding to my wanting to be asleep.  i want to be in bed and i don't want anyone to talk to me.

i feel like i am always looking for happiness in things or people that i can't have or don't have.   i know that i have a great life and i should love it but i don't.  i feel miserable and alone in a life that a lot of people would love to have.  i am so frustrated with myself but i don't know what to do.  i ate so much today to try and fill the void, i didn't even purge.