Keeping Track

Some awareness has come today. Realzing something from childhood that was triggered by the movie I watched Saturday night; Realizing I was already in a shame spiral even before Saturday; Realizing that lies and even lieing to myself are a protection skill from childhood that is causing trouble in my life.

Just trying to be. Dealt with a lot of anger and frustration today. Right now I feel calm. Sad.

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My roommate just came downstairs and interupted my chain of thought. We talked for 10 minutes about her on again off again boy friend. I'm always having to practice boundaries with her. She has many traits of an Adult Child & Codependent.

Step-by-step. Day-by-day. Moment-by-moment.