Keeping Track

Sitting here. Watching hockey. Cooking dinner. Feeling.......calm. So far today I've been to work (4hours), had a call from a friend, walked a dog, went to therapy, came home and worked on my puzzleand then went for a bike ride. I went to one of my favorite partks, right on the harbor, and did some program work.

Overall things are ok. I went skating again yesterday. I'm really enjoying ice skating buying those skates was a nice gift to myself and that they were only $5 dollars was a wonderful gift from my higher power.

I'm still waiting for my sponsor to decide if last Saturday was a slip or not. I wil be surprised if he doesn't decided it was a slip. We met yesterday and talked it through so he would have the information necessary to make a decision. He said it was less important to discuss what pornogrophy is and more important to discuss why it's looked at - intention. Based on my intentions I believe this to be a slip, but it's not my call.  Either way the more important thing is how this left me feeling and that this wasn't good for me.  I'm no longer using my computer after 7pm since that seems to be when I'm using it in unhealthy ways - trying to escape my life etc.

 Just speaking about that now I feel different. A lot of bad feelings a sort of grossness just came back from typing that paragraph. It's time to move away from that.

I think for my birthday this year I want my Dad to come to town for lunch. It's a simple want, but that is what I want for my birthday. I had that thought while I was at the park today. What's funny is I feel embaressed by that. Maybe not funny.

Anyway, that's all for now.

"I know and believe that the g-d of my understanding has a purose for me."

"I am enough. Self perfection is nolonger a requirement."

I can do this one day at a time.

Step-by-step. Day-by-day. Moment-by-moment.