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Keeping It Real

For the good times, for the bad times, for the rising and the falling.

The Fall

Feb 28 2010

I was doing good. Anfortunately on friday I got really drunk I just fell to the floor several times. I am really embarrased and depressed. Another bump in the road for me. I guess I'll have to get up again and start over.

I feel bad becuase I know what happened. I am under a lot of stress and on friday I just drank my problems away, or at least I thought I'd blow them away. They a...

On medication. Day 1

Jan 29 2010

Done... finished my lab work and as everything is OK my pdoc authorized me to start on sodium divalproate so I'm really excited to see what it does to my cycling. What I'm really concerned is the side effects of the medication. The mst complicated but afortunately rare is Hepatic failure and low plathelets whic can lead to bleeding. But more common are weight gain and sleepness. 

AGAIN AND AGAIN

Jan 25 2010

Just keep doing the same. January was fantastic until now. What a dissapointment, I was doing fine and 3 days ago I started with this mix episode, but tending on hipomania with sadness it's reallyconfusing and annoying. The catalizer: Alcohol again. Do I have a serious alcohol abuse issue? Well I guess so... So I guess I'll have to enter that group as well. I've made my mind, stop t...

HYPOMANIAC!

Dec 28 2009

Just passed this state and going into depression. I'm so embarrased. Last wednesday I went to a eat a barbaque at a friends house. I was really up. I was totally logorrheic I mean I just couldntstop talking, it was terrible. I drank and smoked and ate like it was the last day of my life. I feel so embarrased, it had been a long time since that. Now I feel guilt, and probably it's not th...

I wish a was balanced...

Dec 22 2009

Balanced...  Definition: a state of equilibrium

 What is wrong with wanting to be balanced? That's what I wonder. Is it a terrible thought. I don't mean being mediocre that's a totally different thing. Is being Cyclothimic the definiton of unbalanced? I just gain weight, loose weight, don't smoke, smoke a lot, don't drink, drink a lot. It seems like I am in...

DON'T SAVE YOURSELF

Dec 08 2009
Don't save yourself
 

Don’t remain immobile
At the edge of the road
Don’t freeze the joy
Don’t love with reluctance
Don’t save yourself now
or ever
Don’t save yourself
Don’t fill with calm
Don’t reserve in the world
Only a se...

Limbo - a state of mind.

Dec 04 2009

Sometimes I just feel stuck in Limbo, like I'm not in heaven nor hell, just an in between situation sometimes confortable, sometimes boring and sometimes confusing. Mixed states, in a mood chart itsan +/- the polarity simultaneously, kind of scaring becuase I don't know who will win. Will I feel like extremely good or sad tomorrow. I can feel it coming, It all depends on today, on what...

A good month

Oct 27 2009

I ussually remember to write on the bad days, but I think that it's quite unffair to do that with myself. I have to treasure the good ones. This past month was great for me I only had a total of5 diays in a down mood but not a terrible one, just those days you feel small and insecure but it really didn't affect my life at all. The rest odf the days were normal days, I mean, just ME! Me...

One good, one bad!

Sep 02 2009
Hi guys, It's been a while! I have good news I graduated! It was the happiest day of my life really, it was great! A dream come true and I wanted to share it with all of you. After a really depressingJuly and August, the 28th of August I finshed, though it was tough for me to study in those conditions. Now, when I should be really calm I started 4 days ago with a lot of irritability wich is a...

Relapse

Aug 10 2009

Hey, It's me again. Whatcan I say? It's happening again, I'm getting into a down again. It's quite frustrating because its only been 8 days since I recovered from my last depression. I totally know the trigger. I was on Friday quite well and having fun (not in an up mood as in other occasions) and I was drinking rum and fernet with some friends and I over drank, then at the part...

First time

Jul 29 2009

Day 1 -  I finally subscribed to the support group. I'm glad and have great expectations about it. It's great to share our experiences with people who understand what you go threw on adaily basis. I've been cycling for 6 years now and I'm a rapid mood swinger. That means I can be up for 4 days, down for 3, stabilized for a week, down 5 diays, uo 2, it's a mess! But I tr...


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