It feels like I'm on a pretty even keel now.  I know when and for how long the peek times for the medicine are.  The biggest thing I'm working on now is what I want to accomplishand when.  There is so much to get done on any given day and sometimes, many times, I would rather write or go for a walk.  It's been nice to have sunshine and even feel like getting out for a walk.  I feel like I have been under so much pressure internally and the medicine relieves that pressure.  I know there is so much organization and clean up work to do in my life and I feel a little guilty for really using and enjoying the freedom from an unfocused mind and all that impulsivity driving me.  I think I should be doing more things and accomplishing more each day.  I think I know what it is.  All of a sudden I can function in interpersonal relationships with my daughters and so they are taking as much advantage of that as they can.  So, it looks like I'm not getting things done on the outside but in reality, I'm cleaning up some internal mess.  I think as I get the internal messes cleaned up the outside will start to look better too. 

Ali and I are having moments of bonding that have been missing from our relationship.  I can't tell you how wonderful it is to get genuine affection and laughter from her.  I saw my psych today and after my explaining all that we have been through in just these 2 short weeks since I last saw him.  He said that he thought that my increased ability to set boundaries and react proportionately to the situation rather than, impulsively has created a new sense of safety for Ali that allows her to open up to a new part in the relationship.  It's been very touching to experience this and affirming that I really am on the right path.