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Grumpy People

Dec 02 2010

To keep a positive attitude in life and not letting people get you down no matter what kind of day they are having is hard to do. "Fake it till you make it" That comes to mind at this moment. I love the people that I surround myself with. I don't waste my time on people that are a bad influence.

It is just hard though when it is a family member that you love dearly causeing you to feel stressed and grumpy. My Aunt has been in a grumpy mood since Thanksgiving literally. It hasn't let up even a little. I try to re-evaluate the situation and I keep coming to the conclusion that I am not going anything wrong. So how can I fix this?

I stop to think that I didn't Cause, I can't Control it, and I can't Cure it. Yeah I guess you can use that in almost every day life. I deal with my daughter who is transitioning into the 3 year old stage. A husband that drinks more then I thin he should and has a negative way of thinking.

On top of that my own thinking. I feel like everyday I wake up it is another battle. It is another day to defeat the negative thoughts and people. I have learned in my own mental recovery that negative thinking is exhausting mentally and physically. So why not try to be positive.

I realize that with positive think comes some disappointments. But I would rather be happy and think positive. Get dissappointed once in awhile. Then to be negative all the time. Negative thinking took hold of my life. It over powered me. So when I see other people being that way it pisses me off. Excuse my language. I feel it is a threat to my own mental well being.

I am sorry for rambleing on, but I just need to get this out. If I don't it will just sit and stew and in my eyes that is negative way of being. I feel pondering on something that is upsetting you for more then 15 mins a day is really unhealthy and unnessacery.

So for whoever read this thank you for reading and hearing me.

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written by Dit, December 04, 2010

I am mostly a positive person but there are times when i get into this 'negative' thinking and its hard to get rid of. When i'm around others i try hard to not be negative and when i voice negativity i usually catch myself. Guess its only human to be negative sometimes but its not healthy to be that way most of the time, guess we have the choice whether or not to be around it and if we are we could comment to these people about their negativity (only if its possible and appropriate to do) maybe we could help them see this trait and maybe change it, idk. My husband has commented about me being this way sometimes, and i thank him for bringing it up. Thank you for posting this i can really relate.