Just For Today

There has been a blanket set over my eyes for so long. Now that I am slowly pulling it back I can finally see what is real and not. I want to run and hide so bad, but I realize that I can't do that. It seems that I am alone on my own journey in life. My husband isn't even beside me. My friends are on there path but still able to talk to me. Have come to the realization that I am not important. I feel that atleast to someone out there I was, but now I am on my own.

I wanna get out there and live life and break free from my bad feelings. Which I am doing very slowly but surely. I went to see my sister today. I really gotta say "Ah young bliss". She lives a half hour away from me. I barely had any gas in my car. When I got there she was texting her boyfriend almost the whole time. On top of that he called...he knew I was there to spend time with her and they just kept talking. So I left after about a half hour. I can't wait till she understand the value of family and spending time with the onces you don't see that often.