|Jan 05 2013|
Years ago in elementary after gym class, the entire class lined up outside of the school nurse's office. I remember bending over while touching my toes. The school nurse noticed something. I wasscared, because I was the only one who had to return to the nurse. All the other kids were fine.
Not to blame the woman I love the most... But, I told my mom about the school nurse finding something "wrong" with my back. She practically blew me off & didn't try to see what I was talking about. SMH... (If I ever have a child, I'm going to listen to everything they tell me. EVERYTHING!)
Year or two later... Mom notices my back being deformed. A hump. And at that time... I still didn't think to put two & two together about how that nurse found something. Anyway... As a teen, I remember mom & dad taking me to get x-rays & MRIs. I remember a doc. suggesting surgery, but after seeing how my mom cried... I didn't want to go to any more doctor visits. She feared I could be paralyzed if surgery was done & I, too, believed my mom. I was too young to do anything about this. I believed I couldn't be helped. And the internet wasn't so popular & improved like it is now!
My hump grew bigger & bigger throughout my years. I caught hell as a kid. And still today as a young adult... I kind of still do. I won't go into details about the teasing, the stares, being uncomfortable & being in constant pain. It'll just make this story even longer!
All I can say is... From the time I was diagnosed with scoliosis, I've had nothing but dark moments in my life. It's always been hard to be happy, to love life & to just be COMFORTABLE. I've been in this physical AND mental painful state for too long.
I think me signing up for this group site is about the first step I've taken so far. I have no health assistance... nothing! I work over thirty hours a week & I guess the older I've gotten, the worse my scoliosis has gotten.
It's time for me to do something. I haven't had an x-ray done in forever, but I'm assuming/estimating my curve is about a 100 degrees or more.
I don't know about searching for help, but that's what I'm concentrating on now.
It's May 2011 & hopefully... I'll be where I want to be later on. I believe this site could help me.
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