|Apr 18 2012|
I come here every day, to read what others write, sometimes I respond. Sometimes I just come here because I feel so detatched and alone, that I cant stand the emptyness I feel.
Sometimes, liketoday, I wonder why I bother , there is no one there. I write so I can release the pain and fear I feel, if only for a few minutes, because I know that it will be there, maybe with my next thought...
I don't know how to establish relationships. I don't know how to say or do the right things. I scare others away...It isn't their fault, I'm just not socialy adept....I have remained so isolated, that I have nothing but the bad things to share. Never the less, I am still trapped in the prison that my mind is making. Reaching out, brings reward and rejection, triumph and failure...a vicious cycle and one that seems never ending...I don't know where to start or where to end,
I DON'T KNOW WHAT I FEEL.....
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