Okay...so you know that I am manic.  You know that I am extremely agitated.  You know that I am very anxious and on the verge of a panic attack.  You know that I am doing the best that I can and am not interacting much in order to not be triggered or to take thing personal when they are not about me.  If this is true then why???   Why do you tell me to take my bath first.  I say thanks I appreciate that but I have to wait till the baby is asleep.  So you wait.  You still are going to let me go first.  The baby finally falls asleep.  She has not been asleep five minutes.  I was finishing a post online and was going to go take my bath.  But before I can even hit submit you are already up and asking me if it is okay for you to take your bath.  Why are you going to do this?  Why are you going to put yourself first?  You say that you got impatient.  I cannot control when the baby falls asleep.  I mean come on...why are you going to say one thing and then do another?  That is what I am having a problem with.