journey

So I joined weight watchers online (doing the 7 day free trial first) and so far I am loving it! I found out I actually get 71 points. This is actually hard for me to do! I never ATE that many points. I used to drink mountain dew none stop like it was going out of style. I prolly averaged 32 points on that alone. Since i switched to diet sodas and water that cut out half of the the points that i used to intake. So, now that I am trying to EAT 71 points it is hard for me. I feel like i ate soo much more than usual today and i still have 12 more points to go. I don't think I am going to use those points today and just plan better usage tomorrow.

I have no junk food in the house so i do not have to worry about Binging tonight. And if i do wake up and try to eat a bunch of food, the only options I have are pineapples, strawberries, cantelopes or grapes. So no need to worry about overeating bad foods.

I honestly and very surprised that I am staying this motivated. Granted its been like 5 days since I started watching what I eat/quitting REAL soda, and only today of actually joining Weight Watchers and following their rules. But still like I have said before I would normally not made it a day. Heck i even worked out a little today.

So, for now my mood has been stable, and verging on HAPPY (almost) which is a huge deal for me. I think knowing that I am making a positive change in my life is helping. I'm putting other issues on the back burner for now and after I get into the flow of facing weight loss I will slowly address the other issues in my life.

Im trying to live one day at a time, one problem at a time. I too often look at everything as a whole and become overwhelmed. Today I am choosing not to do that. I am choosing to pick one thing to work on.