|Aug 06 2011|
im getting ready to meet some friends at a coffee house (where i'll drink DIET soda) I just wanted to check in and update my diary. I have been following my version of weight watchers until I joinup with them, prolly gunna join tuesday. I have surprisingly been able to follow most of the rules. Its easier right now because at my size i get alot of extra points. I did cheat yesterday and get a banana split, but that only put me a few points over my limit.
I have a great support team at my work, and my friends are being supportive as well. (going to start exercising at a friends like next week) I have gotten all of the junk food and really any excess food out of my house, been drinking more water, and switched to pepsi max or diet instead of regular soda. The soda thing is a HUGE deal for me because i used to (as of 4 days ago) practically BREATHE mountain dew. I am staying motivated because of my supportive people and by checking in and ready a few posts on here. I've even figured out a way to include a couple of drinks at the bar tonight and count them in my points.
Kinda scared about actually joining tuesday because I will be getting the official rules and it might not be as easy as it seems right now. Either way I am still surprised that I am staying motivated. i usually give up in a day. A secret that has helped me though is by telling EVERYONE that I am trying to do this. Knowing i have to face people that I have told I am trying to lose weight helps soooo much.
It sucks that I cant do this on my own, for me. I cant find myself worth it. Having other people depend on me means alot, and i cant let them down. So far though, thats the main difference. By doing it for others and not for MYSELF. Which is the opposite of what I have always heard. Shows how much I care about myself eh? Ill work on that issue later lol.
Also right now my mood has been stable and positive. I get down but talk myself out of it pretty quickly (listening to Britney Spears helps lol) I hope this high last awhile and i can keep things going in a positive direction. ok I have to get going. Thanks for listening anyone who reads this!
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