|Jan 05 2010|
|Oct 20 2009|
|Aug 11 2009|
I have not been keeping up with anything lately. Depression has been more at the forefront of my life.
The pain and sleepiness is ever present too. I have been without pain medications for at least 2 months now. That has not been too positive of an experience. There are so...
|Jul 13 2009|
A lot has changed since I have been on. I interviewed for a different job, a home based one. I was not hired because I go spastic when interviewed and freeze up like a deer in headlights. I really needed that and it has thrown me into a bad funk. That topped with my Grandma going downhill fast. I went to visit and thought that I had things worked out at work but en...
|Jun 09 2009|
Flare Flare go away do not come again another day!
I have been in a strange flare for me for a week now. I wonder if I am slowly moving into a different stage of the fibro. Insomniahas been plaguing me. I feel tired all the time and have huge black circles under my eyes. I also find myself starving all the time which is a switch because usually if it is not emotion...
|May 24 2009|
I sometimes wish that I could cut off the left side of my body! I have had 3 days in a row of waking up and from the top of my head to the tips of my left toes are sore, stiff, and uncooperative. :( Looking at it in a list makes me think that it could be something else. But all of the time I have had fibromyalgia it has almost always struck on the left side of my body.&n...
|May 14 2009|
Doesn't the tittle say it all?
Been a rough couple of weeks. After the break up I am still struggling with the emotions that come to me naturally. There is still the natural reaction to wonder if I did the right thing. Was he the only one for me? Will I be alone for the rest of my life? You know the usual depression reteric. My rational mind d...
|May 03 2009|
Well, I finally made a move toward a healthier life. Dumped the excess baggage. 14 months was a long time though.I think him watching me cleaning him apt.and then trying to make me feel guiltywhen I could not breathe was the last straw. I am tending to alternate between anger and being at peace with the decision. It is difficult especially in the evenings when he would have ca...
|Apr 17 2009|
I have been given several things serious thoughts lately. My job which has decided to cut hours even though we are producing gains. Do I need to find a new job? How can I do that when I have to have open availability for this one???
My current path of therapy that I am working on to keep in a workable mode. Is it really helping with the pain? Or with the innate dep...
|Mar 01 2009|
Well I met my new doctor the other day. She prescribed cymbalta. I had to suggest it to her though. I have felt a little nauseous, but otherwise doing well.
I finally have adate that the temporary management thing ends. March 9th. I am counting the days.
|Feb 17 2009|
Wow times has flown.
Flare ups have not been as bad lately but the underlying pain is still ever present. The depression and anxiety have seemed to amp it up recently. I thinkthis is mostly due to the promotion at work. I can not wait till she gets back off medical leave.
Time has flown for more than one thing in my life. I am fast approaching...
|Jan 25 2009|
Every girl grows up with certain hopes and dreams on how her life is going to turn out. And then as she watches all of them crash around her it makes her sad. The old fashion American dreama house, a car, a nice fence with a dog, and a husband and 2.5 kids. (ok only 2 the .5 is hard on them)
I am almost 30 and I have a car payment, a part time job, a semi decent boyfri...
|Jan 13 2009|
I am guessing I have had some sort of upswing on my depression symptoms because my house is no longer looking like a hurricane went through it. It has been down graded to a tornado. I hadthis weekend off so I went to see my family that I really did not get to visit with on Christmas because being a passenger of my Sisters. I started feeling bad on the way down and am just now...
|Jan 03 2009|
Man do I wish that tittle meant something about warm clothing I got for Christmas instead of mood. I have been so busy because of the pick up on hours at work.and trying to deal with that and all the freaking idiots that there are out there...
No we can't return that without a receipt, box or 1/2 the item
Look up the bathroom is right there.
If you c...
|Dec 03 2008|
|Nov 16 2008|
The doctor I went to had made several comments to me and they have stressed me out a bit. He asked if I was sure about the diagnosis because 'it was often misdiagnosed' Also he wanted me to try yoga. Ugh I am not a skinny-miny little girl with no problems that can contort my body at will into different positions. I can barely even hold my own weight with...
|Nov 11 2008|
|Nov 06 2008|
|Nov 04 2008|
As I have been walking around the last couple of weeks I have been in a fog. Leave for work early to pay rent, forget the check. Miscount the till. Forget to give peoplethe right change back. Go blank in the middle of a sentence. This of course is raising my anxiety level. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
I know I need to go to t...
|Oct 29 2008|
The other day I wrote about going to the emergency room for my migraine. I have to say that I am thankful for them taking me in even though I have no insurance of any type. Since that day I have had at least a moderate pounding in the back of my head. My muscles from the glutes up are strung tight, and nothing seems to relax them. And I am worried because at the em...
|Oct 27 2008|
|Oct 23 2008|
It has been a decent week I think only the minimal need for meds. :) But that does not mean that things are totally good. I have been snapping at people left and right and even almosthad a fight with my b/f this week (unusual we are both extremely passive people) I am hoping this is not a sign that my depression med is going to quit working on me because I will need to b...
|Oct 09 2008|
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|Sep 17 2008|