Well, I'm back.  I am so much better than I was yesterday.  I actually got to get to sleep last night and, for the first time in a long time, I slept throughout thenight without waking up.  The only thing that concerns me is that i woke up almost upside down in my bed.  Must of been having some pretty crazy dreams last night.

    I went to see my doctor yesterday because things were just not right.  Well I got there and unfortunately, my doc wasn't available.  I had to see the OD (thats what they call the well basically doctor of the day at the veterans hospital that I go to,) which i wasn't really too happy about.  I've had bad experiences with the OD before.  Actually I liked this doctor.  In fact, I think I might like this doctor more than the one that I usually see.  Well anyway, she upped my dosage of Risperadone from 1mg a day to 2.  I also get the shot of Risperadal every other week of 25mg.  I was not too confident that this would work.  It seemed to me the problem was with my gabapentin.  It seems like since I started the Gabapentin that the racing thought have been more and that my mood swings have come more often and more severe.  I started on 600mg twice a day, then increased over the last two months to 600mg four times a day.  The last dosage increase was about two weeks ago or so and since that things seemed to get much worse.   I expressed this to the doc but she said to try the uppage in risperadone first.  I'm meeting with my regular doc next week so I guess if there is any problem I will tell him.  These cocktails are a little confusing to keep up with.

     Well, I'm still skeptical.  Just because it worked one night doesn't mean it will continue to work.  I guess I just gotta keep possitive.