I know, but it makes the manic go away for a wow. I have my dog, my ebay business, I make jewelry and I do work part-time, but it's stressing me out and I wig out. I just came out and never really told anyone or accepted it. I was told when I was in a nut house for 7 weeks that I had bipolar, but I thought no way. And there I was in this place for drinking too much and trying suicide. I started a new thing when I lost my last job and that's trying to pursue my dreams of my business and to one day move to where my son and new grandbaby are. I'm scared to get another office job, because it would be the same thing. I'm just living it day by day. I did check into a place and I'm going to go in next week to fill out the application. Thank's for your concern.

I saw an ad at the UT Southwestern Medical Center about needing people who have dual problems to try a new drug. I took the chance. They called me back! I couldn't believe. My heart started racing when she told me who it was and I got so confused I kept going in circles trying to find my glasses. Wow, she told me she would like for me to come in and I will fill out some papers, get tested, blood tests, etc., to see if I can take the drug. I have Hep C too and some medications are harmful to my liver. She said I would also see a doctor. If accepted, praise the lord, they will give me a mood drug for two weeks, Lithium, and then take the new drug - It starts with an S. It's free and I think they pay you at the same time. I just wanted to find some help. Norma, thanks for listening. One thing about this group I don't feel alone. About the alcohol, somestimes I feel I just want to get so drunk and forget, but I can't get drunk I just fall asleep. I don't go out drinking I just isolated myself here in my little apartment. No friends to meeting for dinner or lunch, just me. The only time I talk to people is at my part time job.

Again, thank you and I really enjoy talking to you and everyone else.